im anxious because a friend very close to me, literally the one person who understands everything, is home with pills and alcohol and i know she's got a good tolerance but im so fucking anxious because HELLO graduation party with family and old friends and current friends and i want to scream and cry and i don't even know. I can't put this on my tumblr cuz hey guess what, one of those friends is still online. i didn't have anxiety before, i know i didn't, i don't know when that came, and i'm not exaggerating, if this isnt a mental disorder or some shit then i fucking quit life, because if everyone feels like this, then life aint worth it anym